My Two Week Post Delivery Appointment

Yesterday I had my two week post delivery doctor appointment.

The results came back from the tests that were done on my super small placenta and super short umbilical cord. They were normal. My doctor told me that there was no indication of abnormality, they were just really small. I asked him how this would impact my next pregnancy and he told me that future pregnancies could be completely different. In the future I could have the longest cord he has ever seen. He also assured me that the small placenta and short cord had nothing to do with anything I did or didn't do during the pregnancy, that made me feel better.

I also found out that I will have to deliver any future babies via C-Section. I will never have a vaginal delivery because the risk of rupturing my uterus is too great. I'm not really sure how I feel about this. In one sense, it's kind of cool to know that I probably won't have to go through a long labor and delivery again, everything will be scheduled and planned out. And no more epidurals that don't work. In another sense, I will never know what it's like to deliver vaginally. I expressed my concern to my doctor about feeling that I had done something wrong during delivery. I couldn't understand why I pushed for two hours and the baby didn't budge. He told me that my pelvic area was too small and on top of that, the baby just wasn't budging. It had nothing to do with my lack of ability. I appreciate his assurance, but I still have a disappointed feeling--thinking that I should have been able to push Zoe through. However, I'm just glad she made it here safely. And I'll do what it takes with my next pregnancy to get that baby here safely also, my personal guilt will go on the back burner.